Monday, January 12, 2009

Was reading 'Ice-angel' blog & she posted this MTV. So I watched it & guess what, its really nice. The MTV & the songs the lyrics.... damn meaningfu!! So sweet........ =)

So... I was feeling pissed & irritated by dear dear & the shop that I initially wanted to go to do my eyelash extension yesterday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god I have my brother to accompany me.

Well, talked bout the shop first. Before I reach, I called & make appointment & told them 230pm I'll reach. When I reach, they told me I made the appointment at 3pm!!! WTF!!!! & they expect me to wait for 20minutes??? They said they will called me when done & by the time they called me, its more than 30minutes!!! Thank goodness I didn't wait for their call! It was goddamn crowded at City Plaza with all the Bangalas & the maids & I was fucking hungry & all I want to do is faster get my lashes done & get out of the place & look for food.

So, I went to another shop located at level 2! Discovery Beauty is the name of that shop. The lady who do my lashes is Celia & she is not bad. =) At least not some China girl, I think.

Final result, not bad. Kinda like it. Not that fake. & I wonder how long it will last on me.

After that, walked to Singapore Post for food!! Its crowded everywhere, & settled down at Mac for my brunch, at 4pm!!! =.=

& now, its bout dear dear. Well, he woke up at 1+pm, & asked where I am going then he will look for me. At 2+pm, he told me he is coming out soon & he ended up meeting me at 4+pm!!!! WALAU!! The soon is 2hours lei!! PISSED!!! Didn't want to talk to him when he reach.

But everything was fine after that.

Headed down to Bugis cz my brother wants to go there to shop. He bought couple of things, dear dear bought a shirt & I bought nothing. =)

Then to pick my mum & dinner.

Hmmmmmmmmm... cried myself to sleep last night. Emo! I think too much?? Or something is really wrong?? I serously got no idea at all. All I know is, you've changed. & I don't think you love me more compare to last time?? Its just different. The feelings.... our r/s seems to be not so close & strong, the time we spend together is getting lesser & lesser... I am afraid.. dear dear, do you know. It seems like our r/s may be destroy anytime.... & I don't want to.... you said I starts to take you for granted, you said I got no respect for you... it hurts me when you said that. It really hurts. I can feel my heart aching the whole night, & I guess its been some time that I cried so hard last night as well. I don't want to think, I don't wish to think... I guess its pointless to think as well. When the time is up, I guess, we will know what to do.... hold on or let go....... we shall let fate decide....

Anyway, today is my OFF la. Damn bored! I actually got appointment, leave my house to Tam. when I reached, I find that something is not right so I went to the toilet & DA YI MA VISIT ME!!! =.= Walau of all day, today!!! Pissed! Then I cancel my appointment & went home!! Damnit. Waste my money to travel.

That's why I am so emo so sucky so pissed so irritaed so huge appetite for the past few days! WOMEN!! I HATE PMS!!

Tomorrow OFF too. Going over to my grandparents' place then meet up Ari darling after her work!! =) Like finally we meeting.

Then will be working 4days straight & dear dear will be back le. =) He just sail, for a week.

Haiz. Was chatting with his friend's wife & I starts to know a lot, & think a lot as well. I guess I understand why gfs & wivies of Navy guys will choose to leave them eventually, I am starting to know the reasons..... & I guess, nobody is right or wrong... should or should not. Its sad to hear bout that but...... this kind of thing is hard to say..

If were to ask will I still choose to marry dear dear, my answer will still be a YES! Though I know its not easy, & everything has to deal & handle by myself cz most of the times he is not by my side. Love is blind.& I am dumb.. thats why I will still choose to go for it. HAHA!!

Its 7pm now. I guess I'll watch tv have my dinner le. Bye!

Sunday, January 11, 2009

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Boo! Its 11am & I am OFF yet I am awake at 830am!! =.=

When I am working, I couldn't wake up & wish I could sleep longer. When I am OFF, I woke up damn early & I couldn't sleep anymore. Why is that so?? My body clock is damn fuck up.







Waiting for dear dear to wake up.
















Oh! I had my hair cut..... & this time, we went to JURONG POINT!!! Yes! All the way to the WEST to cut my hair! One end to the other. I think I almost died from the journey to & fro. Even by car. I know its damn insane to travel all the way there to cut hair but, no choice, the stylist had transfer to their & I like him! & he is same age as me lo!! MYGOD!! Amazing good la his skills, I like. I guess I'll stick to one now, faithfully, even if I've to travel damn far.


Anyway, Jurong Point is real HUGE!! I want to go there for shopping! But the moment I think of the travelling time, it kinda stop me. HAHA!! I've got no chance to shop after the haircut cz its damn late already. Only settled down at Bentobox for dinner. Not bad.






Friday dear dear came to pick me up after work. Went over to my mum's place for dinner cz we don't know where to go.


& yesterday, we ended up at her place for dinner as well. Long stories. HAHA! We drove to Changi Village & it was goddamn crowded, not a single parking lot & so many people waiting for the lots as well, so we decided to go other place. I suggested Downtown & same problem as well. Damn irritating!! That's the disadvantage of driving. So he said go to my mum's place. & we, being the filial, waited for her till 11pm, doing nothing, slacking in the car. HAHA!!


Dear dear is just so sweet. =) *muacks. Willing to wait for her, & drive us home after that.


At times, I think he loves my mum more than I love her. KEKE! & later on, we gonna accompany mum to shopping. =) That's just how sweet he is, willing to spend time with my family. =)








& he kinda makes me look like a bad one. Well, besides spending his time in camp working doing duty & sailing, he spend most of his time on me. SO its kinda like camp or me. Its really superb seldom he spend his time with his family. He also spend time with my family but I don't spend time with his. Well, there's just a barrier between me & his family & it just can't seems to be possible for me to do that. I don't know why. Maybe of what's happening before. I know, I am very bad. Its like he is the one making efforts & I don't. But, the thought of seeing his parents just make me scared!!!!! Afraid. Nervous. I don't know. I just have weird feelings... even the thought of wanting to see them!! I seriously don't know when I'll be able to get over. Maybe, not. Forger it, I shall be the bad one then. Or rather. Anyway, I guess in his parents' eyes, I am already the bad one, from the start. =(





That's why at times, I think that I am just so dumb to get into this r/s. Yet I can't control it. It has already come this far & we've been through lots to be really together, I won't let this wasted & let it go. =) All I can do is to take a step at a time, & see what I can. I know, its impossible to avoid his parents for ever, & one day, I'll need to face them. But I am really scare... that it just makes me want to run away & avoid them. =( I'll never forget what had happened, what his parents his sister said to him. NEVER!! I may forgive but not forget...... cz it hurts me deep.

Nonetheless, I'll still love him as much no matter what happen, or what has happened. Its not his fault. Maybe is his family, maybe its nobody. & I don't care. All I care is, just him & me & us. =)

I LOVE YOU SILLY ALWAYS! ♥

Crazily in LOVE with you*

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Its 1pm now & I am goddamnfucking bored!! =.=

Finally I have my OFF, yet I am rotting away at home, & simply no mood to do what I am supposed to do, like packing my room, my waredrobe etcetcect.... SIBEI LAZY & SIANZ!! =.=



& I am feeling hungry, but lazy to eat. =x This is how lazy I am.




Dear dear supposed to OFF but last minute cancelled!! ^$%%(*$$&$#!!#%& How great! Waiting for him to finish work though. & I wonder are we still going for our hair cut.....














Tuesday after work, dear dear picked me up & we went to E.C.P for dinner. =) I love to go E.C.P, Serangoon Garden, Sepang Bedok, Changi Village blahblahblah to eat!! Lots of variety & I can eat all I want. HAHA!! I am sucha PIG!!!! *oops!


Yesterday after work we went to Bugis to meet Laopo & his boy, to pass him advance theory book. He is going to take it on 5th Feb, while I am still slacking!! =x I shall buck up & do it after CNY!!













Next week, I got 4days of OFF!!!! Mon, Tues, Fri & Sun. Thank goodness I am OFF on Mon & Tues cz its the start of new notes changing. Sure maddness!!! =.=

& bf will be away the whole week for sailing + duty!! =( Of all week, on the week when I've got so many OFF days. *haiz. SO, WHO IS AVAILABLE CAN DATE ME FOR CNY SHOPPING!!!! =)

I want to go Chinatown la!!
















& dear dear last night suddenly mood swing!!! =.= All of a sudden, he just so quiet, didn't talk at all, & didn't even want to look at me!!! HOW GREAT!! He kept saying nothing when I asked him whats wrong. I HATE IT!! I can't read his mind I don't know what he is thinking, & I can't do anything, its pissed & at the same time, upset. Its like so helpless that I don't know what I can do.... just feel so helpless. & I guess, the only thing I can do is to walk away, & leave him alone..... =(



Well, he is feeling better now.. thats what he said.














Some radom photos before I go....

*got this cute calender from F.E! =)

*S.H.E!! I love Hebe's hairstyle!!!

On New Year eve...
*while waiting for the fireworks......


*camwhore is the best way to cure boredom... sitting at the booth

*& he thinks that my flash is too bright!

*trying to be funny...

*& proper...

*my X'mas present from Christina, Eeyore!!

*in the car on the way to dear dear's friend wedding dinner last Saturday

*& I love my dress! =)

Crazily in LOVE with you*

Monday, January 05, 2009

Boo!!

Dear dear having sailing today, for a day! HAHA! Think will be back later? Midnight. Its kinda bored without him by my side. Nobody to disturb. KEKE! I simply loveeeeeeeeeee to disturb him, tickle him.... LOL!!



& I am feeling damn tired la!! Almost couldn't wake up this morning. =.=







I went to City Plaza to ask bout the eyelash extensions on Friday night after work. Dear dear came to pick me up & drive me there. HEHE! SO sweet of him. =) Though he still against the idea of me doing it, he still drive me there. =) I guess I'll go & get it done soon... real soon. Sorry dear, I know you againest it, but I'll still go ahead. I am going to gve it a try, even if I regret, I can only blame myself.










Saturday we travelled twice to town. In the day, we went over to help our uncle to collect this blood pressure monitoring thingy in Lucky Plaza. Had bruch at 'Rabbit'. I love their tom yum!! =) Walked around town to find my huge Eeyore but couldn't find. so dear dear suggest to go Tampines. So we travelled all the way there & thank god its not a wasted trip! =) So now, there's 2 Eeyores in his car. HEHE!! The huge one is real nice to cuddle. I love.


Went home after that to prepare for his friend's wedding dinner, at Orchard Hotel. I love my tube dress that I wore that night. No picture though. Its a tad too short so I wore a black stocking. HEHE!! Anyway, food is nice, had a great laugh, & a cute baby boy to play. =)





& I woke up at 6am on Sunday!!! Only have like 4hours+ of sleep!!!! =( Dear dear came to pick me up, then to our uncle's place before heading to Mandai to pay a respect to our grandmother. Was folding the joss paper the whole morning there.... so tired!! Then to our aunts' place for lunch.


After that, dear dear, my mum, my bro & me went to AMK for shopping, although we are very tired! LOL!! Dear dear is the most poor thing one. ;P I only bought a pair of shoe for there. I love. =)


Home-sweet-home to rest cz all of us very tired from all the walking.



Watched Star War on tv with dear dear.... =)














& its our 10th month together!! ♥

Thanks hunny for your unconditioned love for this 1o months. =) As usual, thanks for tolerating my nonsenses, insanities, sudden cravings & request & crazy acts.... my sudden mood swings.... I know you are trying your best to make me happy, to give in whatever I want. This 10 months, of course I am very happy, still, though at times I am feeling upset & pissed. But happy moments are definitely more. =) Thanks for willing to spend times with my family, accompany them though you are tired. I think you are more filial to them compare to me. HAHA! But its really great to see that you click so well with them. =) I am very touched* Truly appreciated.

Whatever it is, I LOVE YOU DEAR! This I promised* I know, you will be worried at times, especially when you are away for months, in foreign countries. & I understand why you feel that way because I've saw a number of cases that happened to your friends/ the people around you. So I will not blame you for behaving like this. =) I know you care that's why you will react this way.


I'll wait for you no matter how long. I know its not easy, and since travelling is part of your job. You know, I'll wait, right hunny?! =) & this will be a test to our r/s.







*muacks.

Crazily in LOVE with you*

Thursday, January 01, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 EVERYONE!!!! =)
A new year a new month a new day a new me!!!



Poor dear dear having duty now. =( IMISSHIM!!









Well, I mentioned that dear dear & me got no plans yesterday, & this is how we spend the day.

I meet him at Eunos for lunch, back to the place to collect his car, head to town for movie 'Bedtime stories' who is really nice & funny, to PS Daiso to get his car's stuff, to Clark Quay to meet our aunt & her friends for dinner, & lastly, to Kallang to watch firework!! =)

Its still well-spent with him though.



It doesn't matter where we are what we doing how we spend the day, as long as I am with him, I am happy. I mean it.









Dear dear was cracking his head where we can go to watch the fireworks cz everywhere will be damn crowded. I know he didn't want to disappoint me, I know he wants me to be happy, & I know he is tired, yet he still wants to bring me to see fireworks. *touched! He said he is the one who wants to watch, but I know he lied. Whatever he does, he will put me as a priority first, he will think of me first.


Thanks hunny for scarifying your sleep just for me, though you need to wake up damn early today for work. Thanks for spending 1+hrs waiting with me just to see the firework. Thanks for everything you do... truly appreciated. *muacks.


& I shall be a better gf for you!! =)













Alright. I shall go prepare & go over to my aunt's place.




Tata! =)

UPDATED!!

I am feeling emo, all of a sudden. I feel so left out for no reasons. I think something is wrong with me, or rather, my brain, my feelings..... =.=

I feel so weird when dear dear is not with me. I'll keep thinking how great it will be if he is with me doing this & that. I want to share my every moments with him.

It seems like nobody understand me, except him. At least with him around, I won't be lonely, knowing that I have someone to depend on to rely on.... who will always be there for me.

I guess, I am too dependent on him.

I guess, he is the only one who will truly appreciate me, who will truly loves me for who I am, the true me.

2008, lots of things happened...

3 of my relatives left this world. Breaking off with Jason & choose to be with someone who is impossible to be with, & I know I need to deal with lots of problems after that, yet I still choose to be with. Maybe that's what it calls love is blind. Learn some lessons bout life & grow up, attending friend's wedding...... dear dear leave me all alone in Sg for 2 months & surprisingly I am able to withstand it & wait for him to be back...

The best thing that ever happened is I get to know dear dear, & to have him in my life. I guess its the best thing ever happened to me for my whole of 22 yrs of life. =) Though initially lots of problems with our parents' disapproval & such, but I believe true love will conquer everything.

Lots of first time with him, such as going to dragonfly on CNY, receiving a bouquet of my favourite flowers, whether its deliver or personal, to lots of interesting places, to Singapore Flyers, try lots of nice food blahblahblah....

He is just like my guardian angel who will protect me take great care of me, worrying that I'll injure myself...

He is just like my fairy, who will take note of my likes & dislikes, wants & needs, & fufill them.

Its not that I like to sing praises of him. I know almost my every post I'll rant bout how good he is blahblahblah... but that's the truth, the truth of how great he is!! He may not be that great to you, but he is just that great to me. I know nobody is perfect, but he is just that perfect, the perfect bf I am looking for.

He is more than a bf to me, he is also my bestie, my adviser, my motivator, my life. Yup! Without him, I guess my world will collapse. HE is my everything.

Hopefully, in 2009, Our r/s will be much stronger, as he is going to leave me for another 2months, & we will be more loving compared to last year. Hopefully everything will be smooth for me, nothing difficult problems/situations for me to handles. I need a break, from all that happened in 2008.....

Crazily in LOVE with you*